“productivity”
I should be writing right now
i should be doing laundry
i haven’t done laundry
in a long time, i’m down
to wearing my pajama shirts
and the same boxers
for days on end
i should go to the gym
i went three times
this week already
i did my regular
exercises but i
should go run
but i’m reading
about river phoenix
and how he died
on the sidewalk
outside the viper room
i’m looking up
the viper room
on google maps
next time i’m in la
i need to check it out
i drove right by it
last time i was there
there’s a picture
of me driving with
the whiskey a-go-go
in the background
and that’s literally
across the street
the band on the
marquee in the picture
is fronted
by a guy i recorded
with, what
are the odds of that
i check tumblr again
i check seeking arrangement again
i check Facebook
i open youtube, don’t search
i’ve heard the story
of river phoenix dying
a million times
the night he died i was
in second grade, i was
godzilla that year, it
was halloween, best
halloween of my life
at that point
if it happened
nowadays
we would’ve
found out
that night
and there
probably
would be footage
of him dying
on the sidewalk
but it was 1993
so we probably
didn’t find out
until the next
morning
i didn’t know
who he was
until i got older
he’d be 49 now
i should be writing
instead of reading
this same tragic romantic story
