“wholesome crush”
i have a crush on a girl named erin
she has brown hair and dimples
very girl next door
she’s 27, just got a job
with u of m
i don’t know anything
about her, not really
i’m old enough to know
when i’m crushing
on the idea of someone
more than who
they really are
i want to text her
haven’t talked to her since
spring
there is no spark there
i think i mentioned her in
another poem
i asked her out in the worst
way possible, directly
it was last february
i’m seeing someone,
she said
no spark
last time she texted
it was about game of thrones
during the final season
asking me some question
because she knew i read
the books
i answered after calculating
the right amount of time
i should let pass
to show her i care
but not too much
why do you ask, i wanted to know
oh, i’m sitting here with austin
watching and we were wondering
(not the exact text, but to this effect)
i assumed austin was the guy she was
seeing, who else would he be?
you mean little thing, i thought,
not responding
i thought you were above that
haven’t had any interaction since
the idea of someone
she’s my wholesome crush
not a jerk-off crush, of which
i have many, like all guys
i don’t think about fucking her
only
i think about making a life
with her
it’s unhealthy
